V is for Vexing (AtoZ 2016)
I love metal clay. I really do.
Except when I hate it.
There aren’t too many times when I hate it, but when I do, the hate is strong. And I hate when it vexes me. You know, those times when I feel like I’m never going to get the design right. When I just can’t get the surface smooth, no matter how many times I go over it. When I break an item for the third time, right after I just put it back together (I’m looking at you, birdfeeder bead!). When I drop a piece and it shatters.
Particularly when I drop a piece.
Although metal clay is strong when fired, it’s fragile before that. Putting just a bit too much pressure on it or accidentally dropping it from an inch or two above the table can have disastrous consequences. I knocked the tray with my half-finished Julbock off the table where it was drying and watched in horror as it fell several feet to the floor and broke into several pieces. There were strong words uttered. Very strong words.
I try to look on the positive side. Things that are only slightly broken can be glued back together. Things that are completely destroyed can be repurposed as glue. But, in the heat of the moment, that doesn’t give me much solace.
What is positive is that things are getting less vexing overall as I go. I’m getting pretty good at gluing things back together. I also somewhat expect that things will change and that I’ll have to be nimble. So, when I do have to change my plans, it’s not a surprise. And I’m less vexed.
What vexes you? How do you keep calm when you are frustrated?